After admitting to experiencing “deep grief,” Halsey confessed they sometimes question whether they “chose the wrong life.”
Singer (who goes by she/they): “I realize that often there is a deep melancholy inside me that no amount of worldly pleasure can touch, a loneliness, an emptiness” on Wednesday’s Instagram Story.
After admitting to experiencing “deep melancholy,” Halsey said, “I often question if I selected the wrong life for myself.” The post was accompanied by an image of candles in flames. And the burden is crushing. The gloom that permeates my work is something I deeply regret, as it has served no greater cause than my own self-loathing.
The singer (who goes by she/they) posted on their Instagram Story on Wednesday, “I realize that often there is a deep melancholy inside me that no amount of worldly pleasure can touch, a loneliness, an emptiness.”
They went on, “I’m turning 28 in a week, and I’m finally breathing deeply for the first time since I stepped into my new life at the age of 18.” That one deep breath was supposed to keep me alive for the next ten years.
The “Closer” singer continued by saying they feel like they’re “wandering lawlessly,” but that they’re looking to music to help them find direction. “With love,” they signed off, “if you can’t be nice, at least be gentle.”
After attempting suicide at 17, Halsey was taken to a psychiatric facility, and they have never been secretive about their struggles with bipolar disorder.To the best of anyone’s knowledge, no one knows that I’ve been committed twice since [I became] Halsey. The musician told Rolling Stone in 2019 that he was no longer ashamed to discuss their ongoing problems.
It was my decision to make. “Hey, I’m not going to do something awful right now, but I’m getting to the point where I’m frightened that I could, so I need to go figure this out,” I told [my manager]. My physical experience of it continues. To put it simply, I know when to get in front of it.The “Without Me” singer has had a difficult time over the past several years with their mental health, and they have also been diagnosed with a number of physical ailments.
Halsey stated in May they were diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos, Sjogren’s, MCAS, and POTS after a series of hospitalizations.I’m looking for the root cause of some of these things, which may be an autoimmune condition. Halsey reassured fans on Instagram, “I’ve had autoimmune issues my whole life, especially endometriosis. Don’t worry.”